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[Nov. 22nd, 2008|06:09 pm] |
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things are only as complicated as you make them. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2008|07:17 pm] |
i hate my life
and i drink myself silly. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2007|11:42 am] |
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we will never see eye to eye. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2007|02:41 pm] |
this is ridiculous
he hasnt done anything to anyone of you.
theres no fucking reason to not like him
yeah me and him have had our issues. but thats our issues
i tell people because i consider them my friends.
and i was hurt and wanted to go to them
but thats not a reason to just hate or dislike someone
you all use to be friends with.
he hasnt done anything to you, so why is there a need to not like him.
i am happy with him. and i want to be with him
i want to hang out with my friends and him.
i dont understand why that is such a big deal
and cant happen. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2007|12:57 am] |
i cant take this anymore
i feel like i constantly am just excluded from everything
like im the last one to know everything.
im done trying to be nice to everyone
fuck it.
ive come to realize that i dont have any close friends
or a best friend anymore.
sigh. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2007|10:22 pm] |
i got my wisdom teeth out yesterday
it hurts so much.
my face looks like a watermelon. hah
and the meds make me sick.
it sucks
im so confused like i dont know what to do or say anymore.
i just want everything to be perfect, or at least better.
i dont know, i wish there was a button and you could just press restart
and just start fresh and do things much differently.
i dont know i just want to be loved, and aprreciated. i dont know
i hate being hurt, i just feel so not good enough. this sucks.
i just feel like crying.
all i can think about it this, i wish i could picture something else in my head, but all i see are those stupid pictures.
and all i hear repeatedly in my head is your explanations.
i hate this, i hate feeling like this.
blah. |
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[Apr. 4th, 2007|10:49 pm] |
i cant take this anymore
i cant keep giving
if im not getting anyhthing back
i put myself out there for you
and you just sit there.
i honestly feel like i am nothing
and that you just dont give two shits.
all i wanted was for you to just be there, and listen
and hold me when i am upset, even if i am upset because of you
i just wanted you to love me, and to honestly just appreciate me.
but apparently its too hard for you to do.
i dont know how much longer i can hold on.
i know i shouldnt even hold on any longer
i know i shouldnt.
im so lost, and just so confused.
i just want to be held, and told i am loved. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2007|09:04 pm] |
im so sick of trying so hard to be friends with
someone who makes me feel like shit all the freakin time
for something ive said sorry for enough times, and when theres nothing else i can do or say.
dont tell me yeah we can hang out, and then leave me or ditch me.
if you honestly dont feel like we can ever be friends.
its like you let everyone else back into your " heart" but me
when other people have hurt you as well.
but its liek you single me out, and treat me so differently then them.
i always always, try and hang out, and make plans, and keep in touch
and im not doing it anymore.
im not going to be rude, im not going to not talk or whatever, but when your ready to finally let things all go, then you can come to me.
if not then, whatever.
im done trying to keep in touch with people, and hang out with people, who dont even give two shits about me, or anything i have to say.
id rather hang out alone then with people who cant even say there my friends. |
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[Sep. 15th, 2006|09:20 am] |
havent updated in a while
im in class right now.
stupid intro to computers
i hate my classes today. :(
but i have a break
so i can see everyone
i have to work tonight
i want to quit
someone get me a new job
alright this was pointless
but oh well ♥ |
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[Sep. 1st, 2006|08:40 am] |
happy 11 months!!!!!
i love you♥ |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|03:12 pm] |
mexico for a week
dont miss me too much |
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[Aug. 17th, 2006|02:34 pm] |
i had so much fun at six flags.
this summers ending is amazing. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2006|11:01 pm] |
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warped tour was so much fun. :) |
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[Jul. 30th, 2006|11:01 pm] |
havent updated in a while.
everythings going goood.
my poison sumac went away.
im going to warped tour on wednesday.
me and brandons 10 months is tuesday.
and mexico in 19 days.
i<3 the summmerrrr |
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[Jul. 11th, 2006|05:24 pm] |
poison sumac
go away :( |
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[Jul. 6th, 2006|12:39 am] |
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my hair smells like chlorine |
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[Jun. 18th, 2006|09:25 am] |
i can't believe this is the end.
i feel like a rock at the bottom of the ocean
no where to go, nothing to say.
i never thought i would have to let go of something
thats meant so much to me, for so long.
its like im losing a part of me.
i know its not the end of the world.
and this is something we have to learn.
and go through.
i just wish it wasnt this hard to let go.
a part of me just wishes he will come back to me
and tell me i am everything he wants.
and he'll just kiss me, and i'll know everythings oaky.
but i know thats not going to happen.
i just wish i could start over, and make things right from the beginning.
but then again everythign happens for a reason.
i just want someone to hold my hand, and just tell me they love me.
because this feeling sucks. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2006|11:13 am] |
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind |
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[Jun. 9th, 2006|06:14 am] |
its 615
i cant sleep
im a mess.
please make this go away. |
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